Thanks again for the response.

I just came back from my T and it was probably the hardest session I have had yet. I always look at my T for her smile or just her reassurance, but instead I got this look from her that I didn't like

She was asking me questions of what I was looking for in therapy and if I didn't think it was helping, why would I come back. It came to a point where I just couldn't answer and just sat silent, but she wouldn't talk to me and giving me that look She also suggested that I take more medications because I can't seem to make up my mind about things.

Finally I just got fed up and semi-yelled (I rarely do) at her why she is putting so much pressure on me, that she was the one with the PhD and knowledge, and I sacrifice so much just to see her from my work.

She said it is up to me to work on this stuff and to believe therapy is helpful, if not, then it will not work. In the end, my T said she wasn't disappointed in me, but just frustrated. She re-iterated that her number one priority is to make sure I am all right.

Anyone would have thoughts on this? I can probably type more stuff, but I am just emotionally drain.