Hey Tamster ...
I told one of my psychiatrists that the only difference between him and a street dealer is that he had the blessing of the FDA. He about ruptured a testicle over that comment.
Nevertheless, it was several years before I was ever able to free myself from being "legally" addicted to the crap they're peddling.
Withdrawal was a mess too ... Of course they (the psychiatric community) like to call it discontinuation symptoms ... But when you're hurling and spewing and cramping like a mofo with your head splitting apart at the seams for 2 - 3 months ... Then, yeah, it's about as bad as anything "illegal" out there in my opinion.
Sorry you're having to struggle with all that too.

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Pfrog