I hope it's appropriate for me to post this in here, but this is the only forum I seem to get feedback! I am sitting here with my soon to be ex husband in my living room. When I m ok with myself and have my mind in the right place I can handle spending time with him but right now I CAN'T!!! The flashbacks are unreal so I disassociate and numb out to deal with him!!! I hate it!!!!!