I really wanna post. I tried. I deleted. Here's to trying again.

I'm sinking.
I'm miserable.
Life sucks.
I can only think of negative things to say about me.
School is really starting to smother me.
I just want to hide away.
And forget.
Forget I was ever born.
Forget how many people I've upset.
Forget how many people still like me.
Because they shouldn't.
Bad bad bad I am.
So sick of being me.
I really want help, but some part of me doesnt. And she keeps lying. To everyone. Except for me.
I want to go to bed and stay there.

Back to being all alone again. For the best. Nobody needs me around when I'm being mopey. Mopey will last a long time. Just wanted to say that.

I'm sorry for being me.