I relate to you. I've been on over 45-50 meds since 1986 and I came to the same conclusion about ten yrs ago. I'm very sensitive to meds or either I don't respond to them. And I'm stuck in the middle because Doctors don't know what to do. They usually give me options like, "Well if it helped your mood a little and you had a small side effect wouldn't that be better than not taking it at all?" And I'm like, "No! I'm having trouble walking or I feel too lethargic on this dose and overall I'm not exactly functioning like I want to be functioning!!!" (And they kind of just have no answer.)

That's what Psychiatry is about sometimes which I learned from my Doc. I told him about schizophrenics which I've been around and how they're turned lifeless after getting treatment and my Doc told me "Well, a Doctor has to determine if a certain course of action has to be taken sometimes." Anotherwords, the medication might have some demons but there really aren't any other choices to make.