Hi
2 years ago I had an ulcer. I could not eat most foods. But still I could eat enough foods so it was okay. I got through just fine. It took about 4 months to heal. It was a small ulcer. But I have a lot of acid so it took a long time. I do not respond to PPIs they do not work for me.

10 days ago I was in intense pain. 2 ulcers. One of them really bad. The really bad one is in the small intestine. I will not go into details. But the pain is significant.

I cannot eat anything but water and miso paste with over cooked white rice with pureed carrot. and a drink made from egg protein powder. Today I tried a little bit of cod fish in the water. But I could not handle it. The pain was too much.

I am being treated for H-Pylori. But I had huge amounts of acid for years when I didnt have H-Pylori. So when the bacteria is gone, there still will be the acid slowing down the healing of the ulcer. I have tried everything over the years for the acid. Naturopaths, MDs Homeopaths. Tried it all. all the cures. nothing helps much. Although I am taking a ton of things now. Okay now that I got that out of the way,

I am so deeply depressed. Cant stop crying for long. its been 10 days eating that horrible stuff. I lost my only comfort. My only friend. Agoraphobic. no one calls. No one cares. and I am all alone eating this horrible stuff twice a day.

If someone told me I could eat sweet potatoes I would not do it. Because it is fattning. And I will not eat any of my trigger foods. I worked too hard to lose the weight. I know how depressed I will get if I gain much more weight. Oh yes,. I am eating practially nothing and gaining. or if I am very very careful I am maintaining at what I gained. the doctor tested thyroid and the TSH level is just fine. She will not test further.

So I am eating very very little. And I have gained a few pounds. And I can have none of the foods I even like. I am becoming more and more depressed every day. I told my brother I was very sick. This is before I was diagnosed. and the pain was through the roof. Because I didnt know that I could not have chicken bouillon. He knew i was in horrible pain and was in the process of being diagnosed. but he never bothered to call me to ask how I was. And I told him more than a week ago. Same thing with a so called friend. Same thing with another friend. no one irl cares. Thats the way it is. no one even cares.

I am feeling so depressed. A summer without raw food. A summer without dairy, chicken. No lemon, no chocolate. nothing that helped me make it from day to day. nothing. I just keep crying. I am increasingly depressed each day. Not even my food for comfort anymore. Cant even have a bite of something. It would make me very sick. As I said even a small amount of cod in my water with carrot puree today caused too much pain.

Thank you for reading this. I am distraught.