I'm newly diagnosed ddnos (dissociative disorder not otherwise specified) and I have borderline personality disorder. I'm just having a sort of waking up to all this and am completely overwhelmed. I just started the integration process myself using the dissociative table technique. I feel like I'm floundering through everything and it feels awkward and surreal right now. I know though that in time, I will get to know my system better and how to communicate with it etc, but for now, I'm at a complete loss for words etc.