Hi. I'm not sure I can help, but I can totally relate to you. I suffer from depression. I have been on meds for the past 11 years. Different ones, of course. Sometimes they don't work well enough or whatever. Anyway, I know what you mean about no hope of getting better. I'm feeling that way now myself. It stinks! I do see a T. I am glad I go, she does help me. Ive just been feeling so negative lately. Like, will I ever feel good again, happy again, be my old self again? Sorry, I'm rambling. On top of all this depression stuff, I'm married with children and have no interest in intimacy, whatsoever....probably the med, right? I'm starting to question my sexuality. Am I a lesbian? I have been obsessing about this for some time now. So, anyway, your not alone with your feelings. You've come to the right place. I see a lot of great advice given on these forums. I wish you well. Take care.