I remember that time, too. I always feel like I'm walking just inside the edge of the forest. I just need to step out into the sunshine and everything will be like it once was. Every time I get close, there's suddenly a root or a stump and I end up veering away and finding myself deep in the woods, trying to get back to the light. I want more than anything to step out past the trees and be home. Maybe it will be soon... for you too.. We just have to keep trying to get there.