I'm going to be honest, I suck at making new contacts and making new friends. Always been, always will be. Yet I manage to get friends, but I don't know how, it just happens without me realising it.

I see myself as a very boring and uninterested person, because that's true about my personality. My friends often ask if I want to hang out, but I always come up with excuses why I can't because I don't feel like hanging out with my friends or my family. I never know what to talk about, and I always feel relieved when any of my friends always know what to talk about. I often need people who can start a conversation that can last for hours, otherwise I will never start a conversation and actually talk.

I'm a extremely introvert person, I've always been that and I'm extremely shy. People tell me to be myself, and that's the problem. If I'm being myself, I'm always quiet and barely talk at all. I'm just there while people are talking.

My main problem is that I don't want to meet with people. I'm kind of a lone wolf, but at the same time I hate to be alone. It's frustrating. I don't like being around people for a long time. I would rather sit in my room and talk with people online for hours than going out with people.

Tell me, am I antisocial?