I'm not on meds or in treatment. I would say it's not easy and it takes every bit of sheer will to keep going most of the time. I've never been on meds for long periods. I function on will power. My mom is the one who taught me will power, by surviving 11 years with breast cancer and not laying down to die.

I just refuse to give up. I learn everything I can about my bipolar. I track my moods, I learn reality checking for my psychosis, I take responsability for my episodes, I learn my triggers, I try to stay on my routins and take care of myself.

I often dream some magic will come down and save me sometimes, then I remember that nothing can save me except myself. I'm my own super hero. It's taken me a lot of hard work and vigilance to get this far and I feel I have much more to learn and farther to go. I'm not perfect but I won't give up.