Well, you've withdrawn your emotions which is the problem, and you might wish to talk
to a psychiatrist to find out what is so difficult for you to accomplish that you would rather put all your emotions aside rather than to deal with the problem. Talking about it with
someone who is on your side and is a specialist in medications for a condition like that
might bring back your emotions and self-admiration and a whole lot more. You might
even begin to like the real you who is probably a very likable person.

Good wishes on the psychiatric visit. Let us know how you get along, won't you, and
what you think of the psychotropic medications prescribed for you?