Hi Miller. This is my first post. I just joined today. I also feel so tired and so empty inside. I place tons of guilt upon myself because I don't feel like i'm "supposed" to feel. I feel like I am not capable of loving anyone. I hardly cry anymore. I wish I could feel happiness or even interest in anything. Wearing that mask each day is exhausting. I'm going to ask my doctor for a medicine change, but not until mid June because that's his next available appointment I too keep people at a distance, even my best friend. I will never let anyone know what is truly in my mind because I am afraid of their judgement. I am hoping this forum will be a safe place to talk with others. I am glad you posted, I feel so many of the same things you do. I hate it when people say "hang in there" but i'm going to say it: hang in there! One day at a time.