Hey! It is so nice to hear from krazy_phoenix! And yellowted I don't know you well but have often enjoyed your posts.
Fox- ( and others) I have kind of paired off "outside voices" and "inside voices" and outside voices are definitely more like other people. While inside voices, some of them, seem to be associated with lost time, conflicting memories, body memories, and other confusing states of being. I definitely feel like there are parts inside me that are kids. I was triggered in a way that brought out an inner kid to the surface very recently. Also, I know that sometimes I dissociate and its like being in the corner or on the ceiling and the body is like some separate entity entirely. I dunno what that means in terms of where I am at with ideas like did/co-consciousness/integration.
Its very confusing sometimes. I know though that I really really don't like it when I know I've been "gone" and I didn't make any sort of conscious choice to be. I'm not sure how to be better. I am really happy you are excited about working towards a goal of remaining present. That's really brave of you I think.