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Originally Posted by Leed
You NEED to be open in the psychologists office!! How else can he/she help you? Why don't you want to let your emotions out to the psychologist? Is it a matter of trust? Is trust the issue with everyone -- even yourself??
Bottling up your emotions is NOT good. Of course we need to be able to CONTROL our emotions, but that's different than "bottling" them up! We need to know when showing our emotions is appropriate. In the therapists office, it is CERTAINLY appropriate to show our emotions -- otherwise, the therapist won't have a clue "who" we are!
There are those of us who have become so good at bottling up our emotions that now we are completely numb. We can't feel anything -- we can't cry, feel love, grief, sadness, joy, happiness -- anything!! That is NO way to live. Do you want to end up like that?
Please -- let it "go" in the therapists office. You won't regret it, and you'll not only find relief but you'll understand yourself a little better too! God bless and take care. Hugs, Lee
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Well it's not a matter of trust. Or anything to do with social stuff. And I know I WANT to show things, it's just that I "can't". I don't know how else to explain it but it does not feel like my decision or choice when I am not revealing emotions. It feels like some part of me is controlling the rest. It can shut my thoughts down, it can make me stay quiet, it can make me cry when it doesn't want me to reveal things (crying in this case is not sadness, it is a way to mask other emotions that might be revealed). I'm asking people here because I don't know how to overcome that part of me. Of course I would like to let go of some things but then this part shows up and says, "NO. THAT IS BAD." It doesn't really explain why and it's not like fear because when you have fear you are afraid of the result of something - like if you're acrophobic you're afraid of falling, not tall buildings themselves, and you at least can imagine what the result would be if you fell. This part of me doesn't reveal why it's trying to hide my emotions, or what the result of letting them go might be. Logically I should be able to figure out the result of my actions but it does not let me.
Attacking that part and trying to figure something out always results in crying and my mind going completely blank.