Thank you Lostinbooks and Leed, i have talked to my boyfriend about it several times, he is very patient with it, but it does tire us both out. i can't help feeling that way and sometimes he feels that i don't trust him in believing him that he won't leave, but it isn't like that. i do understand he loves me and that he'll always stay, but i can't help getting scared, its like a reflex, but i've been working on it and am trying to control my fears.

Thank you for caring so much, it means a lot,