Well things have been goin perty well.

Sunday will be 9 weeks without a drop of alcohol.

Got into a dark place with my D&A counselor turned T today. Brought up some of the devious thoughts I have. The distruction, mayhem, and death.

Not sure if this was a good move or not, as I have become paranoid as to how the gov't might try to limit my freedoms in the future if they get this kind of info.

But, nevertheless, it felt good to talk about such things. She was a bit taken aback by it i think. Not the first time I've blown her mind tho.

In the beginning I guess she thought it was going to be a routine DUI, court ordered case. She even went as far to say at the second visit, "You really don't care what I put in this do you?"

That attitude soon changed when I revealed to her my academic and other sucesses and that I didnt just think I might have bp, but had spent a week in the pER.

Now I drop this on her, but she took it well.

Her main concern is that I keep involved in my alcoholic past. Hard not to do when all your friends and family are heavy drinkers. She wants me to find more supports, which I hope to find by getting more involved in AA.

I told her my thinking on it, that for some reason or another I enjoy "setting myself up to fail with the goal of perservering". She really liked that line.

Meet with the attorney tomorrow to hear what the DA has in store for me and what we're gonna do at my plea hearing next week. Fingers crossed...

Hope all of you are doing well.