Canders, first just let me say this. Dont EVER appologize for being yourself. No matter what anyone ever says, implies, does ... no one can directly know what reality is for you - for anyone!, nor can they enter into your experiences, and know how you are feeling. So try not to let other people affect you as much as they do, and make you feel like YOU are not worth it, because that is a bold lie. Like Sky said, depression tells us lies. It stops you from seeing things clearly. But I can tell you this first hand. You my dear are worth it, completely and 100%. You may not believe me, but i know that there are tons of other people who would back that up. You can get through this, you are a strong person .. take some time to yourself, heal, but don't be afraid to come back .. we will all be here waiting for you.
Take care of you,
xoxo Jacq