Thanks I needed to hear that! I have been doing nothing but playing with my meds for years now!! I would go on them, start feeling better and take myself back off of them saying I don't need them and each time I get more and more done, self destructive and suicidal!!!! I don't understand why I do it though!!! I get to the point of where I am right now and say ok I need to find a psych and start taking them and then bingo I get feeling better and at f it again!!!! Anyways!!!!