(((((lil' bro)))) don't be so hard on yourself.
One thing I've learned overtime is that my parents issues, "aren't my issues" I have developed some because of their behavior, but that doesn't mean I have to carry theirs into myself.
I'm here, scream if you want, swear if you want, I won't judge you, I'm no one to do that and if you are mad, so be it, you have the right to feel mad at the craziness around you.
PM me anytime!