I figured a lot out...I have never really felt love from my family.My parents divorced when I was 4yrs old and my mom and I never respected each other.Maybe because I was the last of her kids and I was a mistake.I do not know how to love because I never felt love.Now she is turning my daughter against me and I cannot even get my daughter to come home because she's at my mom's and my mom will always tell her it is ok for her to stay and turn my daughter against me.Now that I think about EVERYTHING I probably started having PTSD when I was 4years old because my parents divorced.My dad is a doctor and treats me like sh*! and never really been in my life.My mother and I has a very nasty relationship.I go to my T today and I am going to have to tell her things I been numb to but are probably the leading cause of my major depression,PTSD etc.