Hi girl. Indeed I do wonder that. I used to have a fair amount of faith. I had thorough religious training as a child. The main message we got was that: God is Love. My faith has weakened terribly and it is a very lonely feeling that we might be in this universe with no heavenly father looking down and caring about us. I can't tell you the pain this causes me.

I used to respond to bad things in the news by blaming it on people. I thought it was just the price for having free will. Now that explanation doesn't satisfy my doubts.

I'm am demoralized by the amount of pain that is in the world. The news highlights one kind of pain. The other thing that gets to me is nature shows where I see, for instance, the lion chasing down the baby gazelle. The mother gazelle looks on helplessly and obviously distressed. The lion isn't doing anything wrong. It's doing what it was created to do. Why the world was created to harbor such pain makes me feel that life is basically tragic.

I am deeply troubled by the despair this causes in me.