When manic I want to spend $$$ like crazy mostly on clothes and household things I swear I need at the time. I dont have an SO to hand my bank card over to so I'm stuck having to handle it. I am learning how to feel or identify that sudden (and some times lasting days) desire to blow my $ and really force myself to find a diversion....call a friend, not leave house (literally just sit on my couch) staring at clock on cable box until right before closing time and then its too late to go, exercise, etc....I haven't been successful every time but I literally am trying to force myself to not leave house or pull into a favorite stores parking lot and keep on driving.... very hard most times.
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