OK so are you seeing a psychiatrist or a psychologist? Psychiatrist or pdoc is the one with the medicine---that's the one I'd trust on this. How old are you, you don't have to tell me exactly but if you are in your late teens and male it could be the beginning of psychosis unless you have always been this way. It's this sense of your brain controlling you that I'm worried about.

When I was sick my brain was divided into two halves right brain and left brain, apparently this is called compartmentalization. Anyway right brain would tell me to do all sorts of weird things and that was the side where all of the emotions were. Left brain was very logical and was also dominant so it kept me from doing the weird things but also from expressing emotions. One of the overriding themes of my illness was reuniting the two halves of my brain so I could think normally, my goal was to tell this guy that I loved him which I could not do because left brain was stopping me. You don't really sound psychotic--I imagine you would have mentioned voices if you had them, but what about compartmentalization that might fit you.