((((Simon))))
I'm so sorry things are not going well for you. I know how discouraging parents can really make you feel worthless. I know how much pain they can cause, and although i don't know everything about your situation, it is clear how much they have hurt you. But just know that you are a strong talented person, and although it may seem like it, you don't need your fathers approval. If you just follow your own heart and dreams, things will fall into place, and i'm sure that one day your father will look back and realise what a talented son he has.
And i know it doesn't mean as much (as compared to in real life) but you are never alone on here, and don't applogize for just writing about yourself. That's what this place is for, lending support. Maybe right now you are not in the place to lend that support, but thats okay. We've all been there, and you've been there for me at times when things were bad too. So this is me trying to give back, and reassuring you that you have every right to express yourself - on here, irl, and especially in your music.
I know that you can do this. Take care of yourself
Jacq