I've always been known as a problem solver. In all the jobs I ever had, if a problem came up and others couldn't figure it out, it got handed off to me. For the past 15 years I've been a designer and builder of high end cutom furniture and cabinetry which involves many very intricate and complex designs. I got my current job because my company needed to build an elaborate round walnut office into a round room and I new how to. This winter, as a side gig, I designed a large kombucha tea brewery and pub- the first of its kind. And came up with the designs for most of the equipment since it didn't exist.

Now, for the past several months, I look at basic drawings and easy projects and can't figure out the simplest things. I'm currently fixing up my house because I have to sell it and it's taking me forever. On most of the areas that I'm working on, I know in the past I could just look at it and see the finished product in my mind. Now there are parts of it that I've been trying to figure out for days and I just can't figure it out. It's just a big blank.

This really scares me because that creative space in my head has always been my safe place. It's always been where I could go and know that I'm special. Where can I go now? It's also pretty scary because it's my job to come up with the plans and explain them to 5 guys who look to me for the answers.

Is this lack of concentration a regular part of depression. If I get started on meds is this going to come back to me? I'm pretty sure if it doesn't, I'm doomed...