Hi all,

I've been feeling very confused lately, so I wanted to share what's been going through my mind.

So, basically, one part of me is seriously considering trying to stop cutting. I look down and see all my cuts and scars, and they're all so ugly and shameful, I don't want any more. And for the first time in forever, I'm thinking about the future, what happens if I get into a relationship? What then? No one would love the girl with scars.

But, another part of me thinks, screw recovery, I deserve this, and I need it, self injury is a part of me and it makes me feel better, so why should I stop? I love it.

I know it might sound kind of crazy, but I'm just really torn between getting better, and not getting better.

What are your guy's thoughts on this?

I hope you all are doing wonderful.

x