I suppose its enough to care and still keep him in my life, I mean I know if I told him I was spending so much time worrying he'd probably tell me not to, same with my brother. And I have more enough things to worry about already.
Concern is ok, but obsessing over it so much it stresses me out doesn't really do anyone any good I suppose. Especially when I know in reality they are ok my dad is living at a family friends house for now and my brother has lots of friends and people he can stay with. I am just not sure how to avoid the excessive worrying, I can't keep always put others first to the extent I put off things that are important to me. I guess I feel like such a failure at life I feel like I have to endlessly make up for it.
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