I'm 17. As I grow up, I feel really easy to get angry especially towards my mom. I will snap if she screams my name when she calls me. I also get really annoyed if she ask me to do this or do that. Basically, I feel irritated if my mom ask me to do anything. Here's a little background. Mom used to hit, slap,pinch, pull my hair, call me dog, or anything like that when I was around 3-8 years. It has stopped now, she's also become very nice. But I can't get close to her. Is it related to my behaviour towards her?

Also, I look around the internet about bipolar/ borderline personality disorder. I don't think I'm bipolar, but I think I might be BDP. My mood can easily change. Bad mood/good mood can last in minutes to hours and instantly change. For my social life, I don't have many friends. I sometimes really want to hangout with them go everywhere but sometimes I just to be left alone, in my room, do nothing. When I feel really angry, I really want to punch something but I just end up slap something really hard or throw pen or write with all the energy on paper (paper sometimes rip). I used to think about suicide like a long time ago, not anymore though. I like to speeding, it makes me feel free/ less stress, I like the adrenaline. Also when my friends hangout with their other friends, I felt left out, alone, empty, sometimes cry.I think they just come to me because their other friends are busy. I also sometimes feel I'm superior/ smarter than anybody else because I have great score in school (I keep telling my self this is silly). I sometimes cross someone wrong. I easily judge people negatively. In doing homework, its easier for me to work at midnight to morning. I lack of sleep. in school days probably just 3-5 hours a day. sometimes I feel more energetic that way sometimes I feel really tired and hard to get up from bed.

What do you think? Is it me being teenager or something is wrong?