Thank you :-)

I'm so happy about this...

I've had trouble finding a t who is a good fit for me. Done a fair bit of CBT but that isn't so well suited to me. Had 8 months with a DBT t who I got on really well with, but she was always planning on moving on and I was fairly devistated when she did. Then a whole bunch of people I didn't get on so well with. I was starting to feel like it must have been me... It must have been me... But I'd remember the t I had for 8 months and I knew it was just that it is hard for me to find someone I really fit with.

Then some councellors... And they were lovely caring people. Lovely caring people... But I didn't really make progress on my issues because they didn't really know what to do with me...

Then some p-docs. Some were lovely. Some the fit was harder. But they were only around for about 3 or 6 months and then they would move on. I was really upset when one of them left for Canada. Well... A few of them actually...

And my current t (the one that the thread was first about) she is lovely but in terms of progress...

And so I can't quite believe it. I expect people to try and dump me off on someone else but this guy seemed happy about working with me. And he seemed so nice... I can't believe it. Do I need to pinch myself?

:-)

hopeful... And happy... And fairly scared. Scared... I get scared that people will feel repulsed by me... Scared that I'll be too much... Some of my feelings... And some of my thoughts (that I'd never admit...) Only... I'll have to admit them at some point...

Shame.

The biggest thing in my life. Shame and repulsion.

I so hope this works out.