I haven't hqad a chance to read the whole post but scanning it one thing stands out -

"So you are rational mind. And emotions are something that rational mind can't / won't accept and so emotions are delegated out to an alter. And the same for memories and various bodily sensations"

No I don't "delegate out" my feeings to my alters. I have no control as to which alter gets which memory or type of memory.

The brain automatically stored any memories abuse or not in the brain as electrical impulses according to the five senses and emotions. professionals know this by probing a persons brain when they are getting prepared for brain surgery. The patient is kept awake while the treatment team uses probes to touch various parts of the brain and in turn the patient raises their arm, leg, tells the team what they taste, hear see, smell feel emotional wise. So professionals know that the way memories are stored is just how the brain automatically works. I cant sit here and have someone hit me and say ok "Mary" you will now have the memory of my being hit. the brain automatically matches the getting hit with a memory that is already stored in the brain of previously getting hit and stores that new situation of getting hit with the old memory of getting hit. I cant "delegate" delegate means I am making a conscious choice. I cant do that the brain automatically does that according to what memory gets triggered by matching.

FOR ME it isn't a situation of my rational mind not being able to accept emotions. It is the fact that emotionally I could not handle the abuse that I went through so my brain instead of storing those pieces of memories according to the 5 senses and emotions in the conscious level of thinking my brain stored them at the unconscious level of thinking.

Its a kind of amnesia. I don't have any memory of those emotions so I cannot express them. Its not a matter of rational vs emotional. MY brain automatically stored MY emotions at the unconscious level. Unconscious level of thinking has both rational and emotional thinking areas just like the conscious level of thinking. for example when someone you are breathing and heart is beating that is a rational unconscious brain activity the person has to breath and have their blood circulating through the body or they die. and on the on the emotional level there are many people who cannot remember being sad, happy and so on because of the abuse situation that they went through but yet when they are triggered they act out these unconscious emotions otherwise called alters.

For ME its not rational vs emotional its that my memories - all memories, have been separated and stored at the unconscious level and I have to connect with those unconscious memories and stimulating my 5 senses and emotions is the way to go for ME. DBT requires separareness of emotions and rational to look with the adult mind instead of the emotional child mind of a suation MY goal is integration of all aspects of each of my memories at the same time - co consciosness and integration of MY memories.

I know its hard to understand someone choosing to remember and experience their forgotten memories including emotions instead of just being a third party unemotionally watching the memories unfold but that is what I have choosen to do.

Im glad DBT can help others but it is not the way for ME.