ARGH!! I saw three ministers for help with my problems. Those three REALLY, REALLY messed things up for me! They are not trained in pshychology. They just take a couple of classes and that's it!!! You know the saying about a little knowledge can be really dangerous. How true!!
Hon, I think that when you finally get your fill of how life is for you now, you'll get the courage to find a new, GOOD counselor. You've got too much good going for you to live your life out like this. You deserve ever so much better!
In the Psychology Forum, Sky has a sticky on CBT. I've got the same list, but with more explanation and examples. Why don't you give it a read and see what you think... if you haven't already. I can help you with it, but I have to give a disclaimer here. I AM NOT A PROFESSIONAL.

All I can do is tell you what has worked for me.
It's your choice, though, Sweety. All in good time when YOU are ready. No pressure here, ok?
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