Dear T,

There were so many times that I felt you wanted to tell me something but didn't because you wore the professional hat. I wish you could have told me because I needed to hear it. I needed it then and I need it now. It feels terrible to think that you will never be honest with me.

SHE has hurt me. Don't you see that yet? Just because someone looks good on the outside does not mean you can trust her. It does NOT mean she is a good, kind, person just because YOU want to believe it. She believes she is and that is ironic. She doesn't see or hear herself. She has no idea of her hurtful ways nor can she really control them.

YOU have hurt me so much. The pain is not going anywhere. I sit with it everyday. I did not deserve this on top of all the other s*** I have to deal with. Things just seem to get worse for me.

I wish you could have been honest with me. I wish YOU were the ONE person in my life who could be honest with me but no. Maybe I could have forgiven you in time? The offense was egregious but... I do love you. I shouldn't, but I do. My feelings are all over the place. One minute I'm so angry at you and the next I miss you so much. I hope you have learned something from this and will never repeat the error with someone else or repeat it with me. I hope not......