I have decided (against both my psych and Dr.'s recommendations) to go off my anti-deps. I saw my Dr. today and she said she would make a deal with me and give me sleeping pills if I promised to stay on them or up my dosage. I don't even want more pills! let alone sleeping pills.

A part of me knows I'm being stubborn, but I don't like the disconnect between my feelings and thoughts. I still feel crappy on them so I don't see the point.

I think I can make it. Scared, but hell, I have survived a little over 30 years without meds, so I think I'll be ok... I need to know I can make it without them. Sounds silly doesn't it?