I feel the same way and feel guilty about it too. I am so alone and he is so warm and intellgent. I had a T 20 years ago that I felt the same way about the difference now is this one is handsome. I still would never cross that line with him, I need him and don't want to injure the relationship we have now. Last year I saw him about 17 weeks everyday if I add all the inpatient days up and he always came daily and say down and spent time with me , not all doc do that. I feel lucky and blessed to have him as my pdoc and although i'd love for it to be romantic i will not cross that line I remember what it was like to hold his hand before. The feeling made my heart skip a beat, he is far to important to lose because I cant keep it together, they are not feeling of love though;