Sometimes I just want to crawl in a hole and hide :/ I feel like I have dug myself so deep that its going to be hellish to try to get out and I don't know if I can. I have the hardest time being totally truthful, it's so easy for me to slant the truth to make it look good or I sidestep really answering an get someone I answer for me. I ride horses which makes me rely on feel a lot, my trainer will ask me if I feel this or that and I usually respond that I did feel it and I will tell her how I think it was suppose to feel, but in truth I can't feel a thing different. Don't get me wrong I can feel a little change here and there but a lot if the time I just tell her I did feel it. This morning it kind of blew up in my face. We were working on leading with my horse and she was asking how this and that felt and I was throwing back answers I thought were close to being accurate but I was getting frustrated with myself because I couldn't feel what was really going on. She got upset at me because she thought I was giving her crap. It was probably coming out that way and I was kind of frustrated with her but I was mostly upset with myself. And when she asks me how I thought something went my mind goes blank and I have no idea what to say and she thinks I am holding out on her. Is this the ADD "fog" where I can't feel and can't remember?? I am so confused right now and feeling lost and kind of hopeless, I don't know what to do...