Let me slip into my super hero cape for just a minute and try and compensate for some of my own shortcomings....Since you've heard it all before, feel free to ignore it.

Good to see your fear of rejection shining through. Antagonizing people is a sure fire way to get rejection if that's what you're looking for. Maybe you could give some thought to just what it is you ARE looking for, then we can tell you what you want to hear. (This is where you say, "if I knew what I needed, I wouldn't be here.")

People can only say what works for them. Maybe it's helpful for you, maybe it isn't. And, it can be hard to say what's going to work if you haven't tried it. Maybe you've tried things and they haven't worked. OK. skip those. But, not doing anything about it will certainly not work - though you might at least get the satisfaction of being able to say it doesn't work and you are still miserable - which is, after all, saying something.

Concrete information that is applicable to one person may be the last thing that works for you. You might as well resign yourself to having to sift through lots of concrete information that you won't like that might not work for you. If you want a guaranteed magic bullet, you might want to check out some infomercials.

Continuing to do the same thing, though, is probably not going to result in the kind of changes you seem to be looking for. Maybe give some thought to what sorts of things you're willing to try changing in the hopes of seeing some results, whatever those results might be (do you know?). Maybe it's dancing with butterflies, maybe it's taking a pill, maybe it's finding a therapist, maybe it's surfing PC to reread all this stuff you've heard before.

And you might be surprised that there's more than one person on PC who really does care whether you live or die.

Sorry you're depressed. Things sound crappy. My piece of concrete advice (feel free to hurl it at my head) is <font color="red"> do something, anything </font>