I'm sorry for your dilemma and struggles! I am also sorry that you weren't kept in hospital, for there you would have received the help you appear to desperately need.

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Nobody is helping me.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> I see quite the opposite.

It took a big decision for the lady to write you up and I'm sure it affected her deeply to see you taken away in handcuffs, all to make sure you stayed safe.

The police also cared, because they didn't have to take you, they could have dissed you and not cared.

The doctor didn't let you out on your own, but into the care of friends..

Friends who watched you like a hawk, because they care about you.

Perhaps now it's time for you to realize there are plenty of people in your life who are trying to help you. It's time for you to accept that you need help, and you need it strong and NOW? Please change your mind about hospital, tell your doctor you need the break and are ready to accept help.