Oh, dear-heart -- you have touched my heart with your request for a hug.

Please, also, look for some help for your depression -- there is no reason for you to suffer the way you are -- being young and insecure is tough to deal with.

In today's world, there is not such the stigma with mental health issues, as there were when I was young and in school and suffering, alone. Little did I know that depression and anxiety run in my family, but back then, people would not discuss it -- and from what you have said, your parents are not wanting to discuss this or accept it -- well, you go and find someone who will talk to you and make you realize that you definitely are not alone with your issues, that there is plenty of help available to you -- either with med or with med and counselling

I had to cope with my issues by myself for a long time -- pretty much up to the age of 30 -- but I always felt that there was help somewhere, and that I couldn't possibly be the only person in the world dealing with depression, social anxiety and panic attacks. I am now 65 and still living with depression -- but, thankfully, it is more acceptable today and out in the open for discussion.

WOW -- I still get "hot under the collar" all these years later, when I think about how helpless I felt way back then. Dealing with mental health issues is so much easier today than it was 50 years ago -- please take advantage of that and become a happier and more self-confident person

I leave you with a huge hug and hope you will keep posting here to get the support you need and deserve

Luv