Dont think things like that Orion please,omg i have a drink problem that developed since the breakup of my long term relationship,but i would never dream of blaming her for it.People who drink,choose to drink and nobody can make them do it , just as nobody can make them not drink,we have to make these descisions for ourselves.I understand however the feelings of guilt you have,but believe me and everyone will agree that this was in no way your fault and you are not to blame.Take care of yourself Orion,Ill be thinking of you.