I had my appt. yesterday & did read some things out of my journal that expressed where I am right now & some of the problems I feel "stuck" on. It turned out well & she gave me a book on bp to get my opinion on it (also a good way for me to get more knowledge). She knows I am a voracious reader & definitely like to learn more "self care" techniques to manage my illness, reduce symptoms, address problems like binge eating & to reduce anxiety.

I will go back to see her in a week & will probably read more of my journal to her. I found that less threatening that looking her in the eye & listing all of my weaknesses & feelings of self-reproach. Major development: I teared up a little, but I didn't cry! The increase in my Lamictal & the added Trazadone must be working. I've been crying so easily these past couple months since I had a major episode. I hope now I can look at myself more realistically & not be caught up in so many painful emotions.

Thanks again for the posts.--Suzy