Hey Babs,

I had a year like that last year. Tons of stress on my job due to a passive aggressive co-worker. My partner and I seperated. Then in April I was having horrible headches and almost went blind. While I was going from doctor to doctor, back and forth to hospitals for tests my job fired me so I had no health insurance. In the middle of this I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis!

I also am dealing with the wreckage/fallout of an abusive childhood and also sexual assault. My new P-doc has diagnosed me with Mood Disorder NOS, and is leaning toward Bipolar II, but she needs to look at more stuff, I guess. My partner sounds a lot like your hubby, she won't go to any counseling. She is not supportive of my taking medication to stabilize my moods, although thanks to support from my therapist, I have let her know I am not changing my mind on that. I am trying to learn everything I can about it, but she won't read anything.

You know what though? I am taking care of me, regardless. I can't control what she thinks. What a friend shared with me has me thinking hopefully: At least I am trying to get better, and maybe once she sees that I am getting better she may be more supportive. (Then again, she may not. But I'll feel better and more sure of myself, so I may not care as much.) I am also rekindling my interest in spirituality.

It sounds like you are trying to do that too. You are doing what you need to take care of YOU. Posting here, therapy, and journaling are great! :If you enjoy your church then go. It can offer real strength. My friend had a son with autism and it was a real challenge for the family. I will keep you in my thoughts.

Best,
RainbowFaerie