U made mistakes in your past, u asked forgiveness, u cant control what they do from here, u r no longier that person, congrats on moving forward and accepting responsbility thats a huge step. U should be very proud of yourself. Drinking proably covered alot of the bipolar things you experience. My dad drank himself to death and I know he had to be bipolar, I acted just like him, so I think I acted bipolar before I even experience the effects of bipolar. Now its time for you to forgive yourself and let the recovery begin. GOD make no JUNK!!!!!! I cant forget the past to, but I cant deal with the present situation if Im lost back there, its to hard being in 2 places at one time. I dont know how to tell you how to do it, we all have different ways of coping but your on a positive start. Good luck