intergalatic, I have been the victin of abuse before marriage. Rape when I was 15 for the duration of 9 months. After meeting my H and we got married verbal and emotional abuse was a huge issue in our relationship. Things are getting better now after 18 years, I jsut don't want to be close to anyone that way. Not sex, not nonsexual touches. No hugs from friends, or pats on the shoulder or back. No holding hands, it is not just against my Hubby, it is touch in general from anyone, and espicially sex. That requires lots of touch in lots of places.