Over the past few months, my overall happiness and just outlook on everything has gone downhill. Situations in my life aren't bad though. Frankly, things are going pretty well. Grades and school are going well and my family isn't horrible. Everything is in my mind, I think. I'm a shy person by nature, but recently, unless I'm talking to one of my closest friends, it's a chore interacting with people--even my family. Actually, it's worse around my family. Especially my moher, and our relationship has gotten worse. She thinks I hate her, but all I hate is how she makes me feel like crap by saying "suck it up and stop being so sad" or "no one wants me be around a person who mopes around like you". All I want to do when I'm at home is lock myself in my room and be left alone. I guess it makes me look sad, and I guess it is true because I'm not happy anymore. I fake smiles and I even self harmed a couple times. I'm just sick of my mind and myself.
I don't know if I have depression or something else. Sometimes it feels like depression. Sometimes I don't want to do anything or be around anyone because I don't want to force them to be around me. I just don't know if I should go talk to someone because we don't have much money, but if I need to I will. Does anyone have any idea what this might be? The only reason I'm not calling it depression is because I don't have all the key symptoms of it. But, ideas would be very helpful