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May 19, 2013, 12:11 AM
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Member Since: May 2013
Location: Western United States
Posts: 124
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First of all, 485162342, I want to say that I was surprised by how many of your comments I found I could relate to. I have always had what has been called an "overactive imagination" and, more often, by the less eloquent, that I "think too much."
I think that imagination is a tremendous asset that can, as you have found, be overwhelming. I've found that most people are capable of memorizing other people's ideas and regurgitating them, as need be, but that imagination is something that cannot be bought at any price.
"I want to be normal, have some friends, go out late at night and party like the rest of the people but I don't go on well with that."
I was a wild partygirl when I was young. I went out most nights and drifted from clubs and parties, not going home till the sun rose. I was running away from myself, trying to hide from all the pain I was in. And most of the people I caroused with were doing the exact same thing.
When I was young, I also thought that therapy was for other people. When I did decide to go, I thought it was something that could be done quickly, like I seemed to achieve so many other things in my youth. I'm about to make a statement, NOT to discourage you, but to try to help you be more realistic about therapy. Not all therapists will have all the qualities that you may need to make progress. Not all will be worthy of your trust. But until you begin to open up to one, I'm not sure how much progress you will make on your own, in your current mindset. Also, when I started therapy I thought I could tidy myself up in a couple of months. It's 16 years later and I'm still learning and growing from work I do in continued therapy. It's not an easy thing to do, to commit to therapy, but you are worth the effort.
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