These thoughts/beliefs only present during hypomania, they are not triggered by stress (although some mild hallucinations are) or sleeplessness. They are also not alcohol or trigger related,( I had alcohol last weekend and none of this popped up in my head) Its simply a (newer) side of my hypomania that I've never shared with anyone before...

I don't believe I am ghost no sprite or fay is more accurate, and yes I believe at the time that my spells would work, and I work so long and hard at them, but usually by the time they're perfect I no longer believe in them. They are aimed at restoring balance and harmony in my "current realm" because humans are so destructive sending out their negative energy left right and centre, without realizing it. And its this negativity that is throwing me off kilter. Its never about doing something physical, its more nature/energy based...

These are also the times I start researching Nephilim ("when the sons of God came in to the daughters
of men, and they bore children to
them") obsessivley, trying to make sense of my existance...

Idk how I feel.... more than human I guess, special, powerful.

Its hard to describe really; I feel like the above is true, but a part of me (logically) knows it can't be, but I go along with it anyway, infact, it doesn't ever occur to me, to not get caught up in it or to ignore it. It just sort of snowballs, 1 day I'm a mythical creature, talking like I was born centuries ago (yes I even chat in "old speak") the next I'm looking for explanations as to why I'm stuck here, (in this realm) like this, and research topics like Nephilim or Valkyrie till I pass out.

Thanks for the input so far guys. I'm not worried per sé, more curious as to if this is typical for my dx, although if I'm just too ignorant to be worried, someone point that out! lol.

On a side note, I'm not experiencing any symptoms at this moment, I'm stressed yes (ex SIL basically ignores my mom when she's told anything, including its time to leave now) and being jobless soon, the faecal matter may very well hit the ceiling oscillator one of these days, but for now I'm not swinging either way. The recent posts just had me thinking about recent bp experiences...

Thanks again for the input thusfar