I am in my early 30's one child single mother.I cannot handle relationships in general let alone trying to be with a man in a relationship.I have PTSD,Major Depression,TBI,Chronic pain just to put the major problems out there.I have lost pretty much all my friends but one that is in a different state.All my mental and emotional has happened in a blink of an eye from a car accident a few years ago.I have multiple M.D.s/therapist helping me.

I had a BF of a year and half until I got my diagnosis and he left me.Which was best for me because he was putting me threw hell and told me "I just believe the people in white coats"!Well the people in white coats were right and I was always complaining about physical symptoms or behavior was horrible or just on a emotional roller coaster with anxiety,panic,depression etc while we were together since accident. I guess he liked my manic/mania behavior.And tormented me, mentally/emotionally abusive,narcissist,belittled me, and overall treated me BAD so I kept relapsing before I got diagnosis.

~I have MAJOR TRUST ISSUES and I often wonder if I will be by myself for the rest of my l life.My child dad passed away 7years ago. So I had some anxiety and depression from that.I had tried to date but they all call me crazy if I am honest and tell them my situation, they will end it really nasty and call me all kinds of names and say hurtful things like "Your so stupid you got hit by a car".Which was not my fault the other driver hit my car!I am trying to accept a lot and I tried to date with being honest and it backfires than I have another relapse.So I stopped dating and I wonder if I will ever feel love by a relationship?

What do I need to do lie and say nothing is going on in my life until I feel the person might try to understand and not throw back in my face and leave me with wasted time so I can relapse.I need advice badly.It makes me very lonely and sad.