Thank you Venus I like sparkle, and I agree that I have aquired some.

People have brought up this shaman idea before mainly because dead people have spoken to me, one (stranger) made me write his daughter a letter at the time of his death, but I have no idea how to go about exploring this idea...

I will try to remember when it happens next to pin down where its coming from, maybe its as simple as my control freak nature trying to gain more power...