you have to be careful when messing with this stuff. From my experiences I do strongly believe there IS something... but it doesn't like to be taken lightly. I guess my messing up with the spirits somewhat contributed to my problems (but so did when I absolutelly tried to block and ignore it... so what can one really do?).

Paying attention to dreams and thoughts that come when totally relaxed can't hurt. And worry not, you will meet the right people to help you on the way. Don't overly seek them... the genuine ones usually don't have flashy internet websites anyways. It just comes up, I think